Yes, I deserve a day off, even from unemployment. Which means a day off of searching for jobs and just relaxing at the lake. Oh, and contemplating my vision. Really, I can’t get it out of my mind. Tell my story. I just keep repeating those words in my mind.
As a recovering workaholic and perfectionist, I tend to overthink large projects. I become so overwhelmed by figuring out what success looks like and worrying about the minute details of the end product, I get wrapped up in its perfection. I tend not to start things until I have way over analysed it and only seen in its perfected form.
It is exhausting. It is basically looking at an expert baker’s four-layer wedding cake, deciding to take it on even if you have never decorated a cake before, and worrying it will not look anything like the expert and doing so much research on the decorating technique until you run out of time and just throw it together. And they only place it belongs at that point is a Pinterest failure blog
I identified this issue of mine over time, starting with my anchor issue in my forum and moved into self-reflection. And it bubbled up some really negative feelings that I had not gotten over for years.
But more on that tomorrow, it is July 4th, we can deal with the hard stuff on a non-holiday.
Jen's Journey 