When I came to the realization of where my bad habit came from, I didn’t understand why I was still doing it, with my relationship with my father being done, and done for a really long time.
A conversation with one of my direct reports about our bad habits triggered it. I do not even remember what she said, but my jaw dropped open and I realized that my relationship with my boss was about the same as with my father. Nothing was ever good and no matter how well of a job I did, there was always a criticism. This of course just triggered my bad habit to continue.
Just like with my father, I tried to address it. Double down on the amount of time I researched something, or the amount of details, etc. Never worked. I had a similar response, wait until the last minute. But I did have to up the game; I had to keep myself busy with other things to explain why I wasn’t able to spend much time on it, and therefore if it wasn’t perfect I had an excuse. Sad, I know. But that is how I survived for a very long time. Sad, I know.
Jen's Journey 